This Lost Chick

What can I say I am a mother and a wife, trying to find my way through life. I am about to enter the big 3..0.. lets see where it takes me!

My Passion



I am a CNA\CMA, to say that I love my job is an understatement! Majority of my family member work in the nursing field.

I have worked for 15 year now! When I see the number it shocks me! My family always said I should go into nursing, but I was your “know it all teen” and I wanted no part of the nursing field. I wanted to be in management, sales and marketing, so that’s what I did. In the beginning I loved it, my company car was a Lexus, and I didn’t need a reason to dress up! I would have breakfast and lunch meetings. My office was the size of most peoples living room, and for lack of better term…. I made BANK! My children financially had everything they ever needed or wanted. My job had a mandatory 50 hours a week, work week, and at first it was okay. I took trips all over the northeast. The down side I never saw my family, or if I did it was always in passing.

In 2015 I needed some change in my life. Now I not sure how thing are in other states, but in North Carolina; you now have to get your CNA before you can go to nursing school. For me this was the best way to start. I told myself I would get my CNA, give nursing a try. If I didn’t like it I only spent hundreds not thousands on my new career choice. From day one I was in love! I have always been a people person, and now I was being paid to care for people, listen and even console them. Not long after being a CNA I was asked if I wanted to get my Medication Aide, at no cost to me I might add! My managers said they wanted me to further my education, that I am a natural talent, and when I am ready to go to nursing school let them no and they would front the cost!

This year I am taking all the classes I need before I enter nursing school, but I am scared! This is a big step, and so far in live I have not failed at anything. I am afraid, I may fail, but I refuse to let my fears keep me down! My dream is to be a Flight Nurse! My mother worries for me, she thinks I have lost my mind! Though she will always support what I want to do.



Holy Shit 30

I am a little more then 4 months away from the BIG 30! I am beyond not ready! My lovely husband has said if I want a birthday party I am on my own. Now I’m stuck how in the hell am I going to give myself a bad ass party?!?

I am the shit when it comes to planning kid birthdays, after all I am a mom! When my son was 8 he wanted a full blown circus, and it was the best party ever! I have planed parties at baseball fields, pools, and bowling allies. When it comes to what I want I have no clue.

I know what I like…… some of everything, but getting it down on paper is going to be hard.

A party is location, location, location right? I spent most of my life in Chicago, so when I moved to North Carolina it was a bit of a shock. I live in a VERY small town compared to Chicago. I was thinking about having my party in Charlotte. I some time think of it as a city in the woods, but not a bad place to party. It would be nice to have my party at a upscale venue, with a adult-ish theme, all of my friends and family. Or have my party in my little town at a podunk venue with the same theme, family and friends.

To a lot this wouldn’t matter, to me it does. I believe in quite a few milestone birthdays. The first being the age 10, you are finally into double digits. At 13 you have made it to your teen years, 16 you can drive. With 18 comes adulthood,  21 you can drink legally. If you are ME and I am, I turned 25 on the 25th and was a quarter century old…. extremely important! Lastly 30, 40, 50 half a century, 60, 70, 75 three-fourths a century 80, 90, 100.. the BIG CENTURY. I want my last milestone birthday to be 109, yes I like to dream big!

So what to do? How do I plan my own 30th birthday party? Will 30 be a good year for me? I know all of this begs more questions then answers.

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