This Lost Chick

What can I say I am a mother and a wife, trying to find my way through life. I am about to enter the big 3..0.. lets see where it takes me!



Beach Trip

I love the beach! I have since the first time I laid eyes on the ocean! The sound, the smell, sometimes I can deal without the people. This trip was not as relaxing as I would hoped! But all in all it was a good trip.

My grandma was born in 1934 and this was her 3rd trip to the beach. The other two times I have taken her, one was for my wedding and the other was our first extended family vacation.

My brother is four years younger then I am, and he is beyond a free spirit. My brother kept making hints that if he was stopped by the police, that would be the end of the trip for him. I didn’t understand until the second night into the third day. Our second night at Myrtle Beach, my brother is digging a massive hole to put his girl friend in. I went to talk to my brother and his girlfriend to see if they needed help. Their eyes where the size if half dollars, wide open! They where high as kite! After talking to my sister I found out my brother brought acid, to “trip” at the beach! Needless to say I had to keep a good eye on them, and keep my children far away! I was not trying to answer any unnecessary questions.

While on their “trip” they played in the ocean like it was only five feet deep! Splashing and swimming out so far I could hardly see them! The next day mm brother told me of what he saw the night before.

He said, “There was a huge bob cat walking around last night. I was about four or five feet big:.

At first I was like DAMN really! How the hell did it get here? Who all saw it? Should we call anyone to warn them?

He said, “The bob cat had star shaped blue sun glasses on his face, and he rode in on the back of a shark. The shark and the bob cat both came walking up the beach like what’s up bro!”

After that I knew he was full of shit and tripping when he saw it! I wish I had a picture of it, we laugh about it everyday.

The 2 bedroom suite we had was lovely, it was on the 11th floor, ocean front and I loved it! The air conditioning unit stopped working our second day and was not able to be fixed, but it wasn’t like where there to stay in the room anyway!

At first my grandma was adamant she was going to swim to Africa! The funny thing is she has still never put her toes in the water. She can’t swim and is afraid of sharks. My grandma says the only way a shark will bite her is if it walks onto the beach to get her! She sat reading a book and watching us swim. DSCN0415

My sister met a guy at a water park we went to. Thought it didn’t work about between, my sister has since moved to Myrtle Beach. I’m not going to lie I am jealous as hell! I love the beach but I can’t live there.DSCN0470

The sunrise was amazing as always! On the beach was a couple, who happened to be in one of my pictures, taking a picture of the sun rising. I wish I knew who they where, it really is a beautiful picture.DSCN0370

The next vacation, it should be the end of July, will just be me, my husband and our babies! Here are some more pictures at the beach!


Work Out Trouble

I can face the facts, I am a little bit out of shape. I go to the gym when I have time after work. Recently I have went to a friend of mines. She has a gym in her garage, I like it better because no one is looking at you. Anyway, I did a work out with her, it felt really good to be working out with a partner again, and I pushed myself hard. Too hard! It was leg day, I should have used my own body mass instead of weights. Particularly because I had not done weights in a while, a long while at that.We worked our legs hard, set by set, rep by rep.

When it came time to stretch I gave 100%. I thought if I stretched really good and took a nice warm shower I would not be all that sore. I was so wrong. When I got up the next day, I couldn’t  walk right but it was more then that. I could not sit at all or bend at the knees for that mater. I would try to bend but it would hurt so bad my wouldn’t let me. I still had to work with all of this going on and it was not easy.

After two days of trying everything I knew, the pain never got any better. I had to go to the doctor, its hard to work when you can’t use proper body mechanics. I strained the quads (quadriceps muscles) in both legs! With the strains I have it could take anywhere from 10 days to 6 weeks for me to return to normal. 10 days to 6 weeks!!

I am on day 5, I am not able to walk much better, but I still can’t walk down steps without help and a lot of pain. When I walk now it is with a slight limp, I have pulled the calf muscle in one of my legs but I will deal with it.

I hope that I will heal fast, I enjoy working out. I have learned my lesson, I will start out slow, without weights the next time. I know I will not be doing leg day for a very long time!










My roots, in truth I know a lot about them, but I only choose to share this. My father was Polish, my mother is black. Yes I mean black not African American. I have looked 3 generations back and my mother is American, my grandmother is American and my great-grandmother was Native American, Chippewa.

I knew I wanted to blog about this last night, but I could not! I felt so many raw emotions, I couldn’t put into words. It still may not be possible for me to put them into words now.

I do not believe that Memorial Day, was the right day to air this series! I say this because shows and movies that focus on racism and unjust treatment always stir up raw emotions.  I am a person that is slow to anger, after watching Roots made my blood boil.

Here are 3 movies, I know for a fact brought raw emotions to the surface. Crash, American History X, and 12 Years a Slave.

I do understand where others are coming from…..

Memorial Day is to honor those who lost there lives so that we as Americans can remain free. If you do not believe that slaves played a major part in our freedoms, you may want to look in to history again! Don’t have time?? I will give you some quick facts: roughly 179,000 slaves served in the U.S. Army. 19,000 served in the Navy. Close to 40,000 black men died in the Civil War! Let that sink in…. my history lesson is over.

As I watched Roots last night, I cried. When I was a teen I watched the 1977 original. After watching it I was mad! But I quickly found my favorite part of the movie and chose to remember that only. It was “Grits dummy”. For some reason I didn’t remember it being this bad!

I am not sure if I can watch more then one episode! I honestly do not think my heart can take it. I only went 3 generations back on my mothers mother, because I knew none of them where slaves. If I where to look on her fathers side I know what I would find, even if I looked at my grandmothers fathers side. It’s not that I choose not to look out of ignorance. I know where my family came from, that is no longer the most important part. What is important is where my family is going.

The past can help shape the future. However if you walk forward while looking back, you are bound to run into a wall and stay there. Look there go there, only we can’t go back so look to the future.


frog-897418_960_720Have you ever wanted to run away? I’m not talking about getting away for a few hours. I’m talking about packing up a few things in the middle of the night, and leaving everything behind!

I have done that a few times in my 20’s. At the time I only had one or two children when I last took off. I grabbed only what was essential, and left the rest behind! I even left my cell phone, you can always pick one up at any gas station or convenient store.

My mother calls me her “Gypsy Child”. I can pack up today, go to a state I have never been to and in 6 months time, you would have thought I have lived there all my life! That is how Well I adapt to change, when I feel the need to.

Today, I feel like running away. I am taking time off of second job, so I can spend more time with my children this summer. This weekend my girls are camping with there girl scout troop. My son, well… he is a teenager and her care about three things in life. 1 His cell phone, I really think it is glued to his hand! 2 GIRLS!!!!!!!!!!! I think that may be the reason his phone is always in hand. Every friend I have ever met of his has been a girl! I can’t say I like it one bit! 3 His Xbox. My son has talent, he can play the game, with a phone in one hand! Not really the kind of skills I am proud of but hey! My husband, he invited some friends over for the weekend. Right now they are off doing what ever it is they do!

So that leaves me here sitting on my front porch, writing a blog about running away!frog-897420_960_720

Big Move

movers-24403_960_720Just in case you can’t tell by the title….. We moved! If you follow me on Twitter or Instagram, you know I HATE moving! I have been unpacking for the past two weeks and I swear to you, we don’t have that much stuff! Well at lease I don’t think I do! Worse yet, I still have unpacking to do! There are about 15 to 20 more boxes to unpack but I really don’t think I have it in me!

Though my children have unpacked all they can, I have to do the rest. After working all week and then some, I just don’t feel like it.

So about the house, it is a rock house. I have never lived in a rock house, I don’t think I had seen a rock house until I moved down here. Until now, all the places that I have lived brick. Another difference is bathrooms! I have found that houses in the south, no matter how many bedrooms , built before 1995 only have ONE bathroom! This house is old, 1946 old! There is no exhaust fan in the bathroom and that is getting old fast with 5 people living under one roof! The house has 4 bedrooms and on 4 or 5 acres.

Week Off


I work two jobs, and I am not complaining! I love what I do, I really do! At one job I am PRN; or as needed, as I want to work, so I can take off when I want. My other job is full time, at 245 PTO (paid time off) we max out. You get a nice check but is only 75% of your hours. I had 210 PTO hours, so it was time for a vacation. If you have read my other post you would know that my anniversary was this month. I had a master plan, I have to request my time off about a month in a half ahead of time. I wanted the family to go on a 5 day cruise to the Bahamas! I didn’t want to book the trip until I knew I could have the time off.

I got the time off, I took a whole week off! I call to book the trip and my card gets declined! I thought to myself no way in hell! I know I have money plus I was saving for this trip! I told the people in the phone to run it again! Yet again it was declined, so I hung up and looked into my bank account. A company in Myrtle Beach, SC took $1,150 from my account a couple days before. I did only thing I could think of, I woke my husband up! He told me he checked my bank account saw I had over $1,500, and he wanted to go to the beach, so he booked a trip! To say I was pissed, is a huge understatement!

I worked for that money, I worked damn hard. Nothing about my jobs are easy, I work long hours, I work everyday of the week. I did not talk to my husband for a full 2 weeks! I tried to call and get my money back. Would you believe the hotel was only willing to get me a refund of $875! Looks like we are going to the beach, but when?! JUNE, not APRIL, not when I have time off! There is no way to tell if I will get the time off in June!

I requested a new debit card and I now keep it a work in my locker!

What to do with a week off, a staycation that I didn’t plan for or want!

Day 1: After taking my children to school, I slept until I wanted to get up. With the help of after school program I got to sleep to 5 pm.

Day 2: An old boss of mine asked if I would have lunch with her, so I did! I drank most of my lunch that day! My husband was unpleased, I told him I could do what I want because I was on vacation!

Day 3: Another lunch date, but with my BFF. She is preggo, so there was no drinking. I am super excited to be planing a baby shower! I also went fishing with my babies! My son landed a 2 pound cat fish!

Days 4, 5 and 6: We as a family with some friends went camping in Cherokee, North Carolina. I am now the proud owner of 50+ mosquito bites, not an exaggeration! Cherokee is really a beautiful place, we tent camp if anyone wanted to know. Here are some pictures:

Day 7: 2,800 loads of laundry, okay maybe only 5 or 6 loads. That part really sucked, I hate laundry and I hated to spend my last day off doing it.

All in all I had a good week. I am still upset about the trip I wanted to take. Though I really didn’t want to go camping, I am glad got the chance to bond with my children. With working as much as I do, I don’t get to see them as much as I would like and I hate that.

Words of Wisdom

The company I work for picks a working CNA to give a speech to graduating CNA’s that will come work for us. I was picked for that honor! At the time I wrote my speech I was working a LTC (long term care) unit, I now work on a rehab unit. What I put in my speech hold true to both LTC and rehab, just in different ways.Here is my speech……..

Just because you cannot see it doesn’t mean it is not there!

My story:

One night a resident called me into her room to tell me there was a pony in trying to eat her shoes. I could have told her there was nothing in the room, but that would have been the makings of an argument. So thinking quickly, I told the pony to SHOO! I asked if she needed anything else, and left. Not 5 minutes later she called me for the same thing. My response was the same as the first time; I shooed the pony and left. When she rang a third time, I went to my lunch bag, then answered her call light. The pony was back!!! She was worried he would never leave, and I was starting to get worried as well! I took an apple from my pocket, called the pony, led it out with the apple and explained that I was going to crack the door so he could not come back in……

When 10, 20 and then 30 minutes had passed by I knew it worked! She didn’t have problems with that pony for the rest of the night.

First and foremost congratulations. I can honestly say working in nursing is my passion. The good days along with the bad, the hard as well as easy.

I have learned a lot along the way, and here are some tips I would like to share with you:

♦ Safety is always number one!

♦ Every resident is your resident!

♦ Every alarm going off is your alarm, because safety is number one, and every resident is your resident!

♦ Although you’re coming to work, you are working in someone’s home!

♦ A smile can make the world a brighter place, not only for a residents but anyone you come into contact with.

♦Work smarter, not harder, always work as a team.

♦ If you don’t ask, you don’t know

♦ Working in the nursing field, will not always be text book perfect, and that’s okay.

♦ You can fix a mistake, but you can’t fix a lie!

♦ NEVER SAY THINGS ARE QUITE!!!! As soon as you do all things go awry!

♦ Always find time for what I call the 4 C’s

1)Clean nails

2)Clean teeth

3)Clean clothes


If a resident is scrunched down at the foot of the bed, not only is it unsafe, it’s uncomfortable.

♦ Be more than just a CNA

♦ Listen to your residents to create a better relationship in order to help learn daily habits.

I hope in the days to come you will put my tips to work. I wish you all the very best as you continue your journeys. 


I hope this is able to help more then just the 14 new CNA’s we welcomed in to our company and facility.

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